October's Referral Eve

It’s referral eve!!!! Or thereabouts. You never know exactly when referrals will arrive from China but I do know from our agency that CCAA is busy making matches. Maybe, just maybe they’re making ours! Most likely we will just miss this round of matches but that means we WILL be next!! I’m not going to be excited about the fact that right now a darling baby girl could be matched with our family. I’m going to be calm and not even think about the fact that I could be looking at my baby’s face any time now. I’m not going to dwell on it. Nope, I’m calm and I’m not thinking about it. Not wondering what Baby T will look like, not obsessively checking my phone over and over to see if I missed a call even though the phone is attached to my waist. Not checking the Rumor Queen site every 15.5 seconds. I am having no problem concentrating on my job, finishing my sentences, remembering why I walked into a room…Wait, that’s not true, I always have problems with those things. But I am perfectly calm. DID YOU KNOW I WILL BE GETTING MY REFERRAL SOON???!!!! I WILL BE TRAVELING TO CHINA TO GET MY BABY GIRL IN DECEMBER OR JANUARY!!!! I’m calm. I’m concentrating on whatever it is that I am supposed to be doing right now.